Posted by Jazzed on May 25, 2005, at 13:26:58
In reply to Re: Time to quit? ((((((Might trigger)))))) » Jazzed, posted by B2chica on May 25, 2005, at 11:25:28
> it's important that your support system (whomever they may be) knows about your negative thoughts. One that that has helped me is my pdoc keeps telling me most of my S. thoughts or self harm thoughts are impulsive...take the impulsivity out of them. if you're driving and think about pulling out infront of a bus, think of the passengers or the driver of that vehicle. You can't do anything impulsive- you can't, i'm telling you you can't. Don't.
> and don't be mad at yourself for thinking them. my first guess is it's medication so no matter what you pdoc said last time you march in there and say "HEY- every other day i want to drive into oncoming traffic. These thoughts and feelings are not acceptable...change my meds or do something!"
> and remember, it's one thing to have these thoughts, its another to act on them. when you have them, ask what was i thinking right before the thought came. is it a trigger? ask yourself 'why do i want to pull into traffic? how would my family/friends feel? what would it be like? go through each support persons life and how it would change.
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> please take care
> and TALK TO YOUR PDOC!!!
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> b2c.
>
Thanks B2C,That's funny you mention that because I was telling my husband how unfair it would be of me to pull in front of a truck. I could cause the driver to die, or at least forever change his/her life for the worse. Also, I usually have my 2 yo w/me, and of course I wouldn't put him in that situation, and wouldn't do that to my other kids. One funny thing that came up is that I told my husband I didn't want my mother in law going through my stuff, that's enough to stop me!
I'm sure it's the meds because today, after backing down to 40, I feel really good. I think it was just too big of a jump for me. I am basically a happy person 95% of the time, so for me to think this way is just really out of the ordinary.
I love the way you say, "hey! every other day i want to drive into oncoming traffic. These thoughts and feelings are not acceptable!" I guess I need to get some attitude with him. After all, I am paying him big bucks for his 10 minutes of precious time every month.
Thanks again, you and Daisy made me feel much better.
Jazz
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