Posted by Jazzed on May 25, 2005, at 10:56:28
In reply to Re: Time to quit? ((((((Might trigger)))))) » Jazzed, posted by daisym on May 24, 2005, at 23:57:51
> I'm glad you told your husband how you've been feeling. These feelings are impulsive and it is important that you recognize that quality. You need to keep yourself safe.
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> I know what you mean about the shocking quality of having these thoughts. It still amazes me when i find myself sinking into them.
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> I think you should go back to your pdoc and try something else. There are so many possibilities out there now. Every day shouldn't be such a struggle.Thanks Daisy,
Well, it is good that I told my husband, but even if I were on the verge of doing something, he wouldn't do anything to stop me, I'm sure of that. He just has so little understanding that he could never fathom how desparate it feels. He's a good guy, and I'm lucky, he's always happy. He really balances me, esp. with the kids.
Anyway, you're right, it's weird how one minute you can be thinking about what to cook for dinner, or how beautiful it is outside, and all of a sudden, out of the blue, you can have a thought pop into your head and kind of go with that for awhile. It's not like the first time, after the stimulant when I felt totally desparate thank goodness. It's more of a creeping up on me, you used the word impulsive, that's a good description.
I did cut back to 40 mg again, and I feel good today, so maybe I just need to stay there for awhile and see what happens. I'm reluctant to call the p-doc because last time I called him, I could tell he was frustrated with me. If it gets bad again I'll call, but not unless it gets bad. This drug kind of sucks. I do feel more motivated, which is great, but I sweat like it's 80 and humid when it's 60 degrees out, have headaches, stuffy nose, and like I said before gained weight. Blek!
Thanks Daisy, I appreciate your kind words.
Jazz
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