Posted by Dinah on May 6, 2005, at 18:09:55
In reply to Re: I don't admit it because I'm afraid » sunny10, posted by mair on May 6, 2005, at 16:46:52
Mair, I think your therapist is a lot like mine in that he'll really put himself out for me to keep me out of the hospital. In my case that means up to daily visits and asking for a no-harm agreement in between. Somehow one or two days never seem so long to last.
Did anyone in your past shame you about suicidal feelings, or challenge you on them? I'm just throwing this in as an idea because that happened to me. My therapist is extra careful as a result. Even if at any given moment he thinks that my thoughts of suicide might actually mean more of a description of how badly I feel, he's always very careful to be respectful of them. Because there is this part of me that, probably because of prior experience, has the urge to prove I'm serious if I'm not taken seriously.
I'm not saying your dynamics are the same as mine. You don't sound anywhere near as defensive as I am about being serious. But I wonder if you have any memory of being shamed on the subject of suicide.
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