Posted by Poet on April 6, 2005, at 18:32:38
In reply to Re: Afraid of my therapist, Acting like a scared child » Poet, posted by daisym on April 5, 2005, at 0:25:41
Hi Daisy,
I printed out your reply. I'm going to hang onto it to remind myself that the fear I am feeling is normal.
I know you've been struggling with your childhood pain. It is scary how old feelings can get stirred and freeze our grown selves in our tracks.
I am afraid of the pain of this old wound. It's not like it ever healed over, keeping it a big secret was a flimsy bandaid of protection. Grown me can't protect child me with denial, but I can't stop myself from trying.My therapist has tried to get me to go back to the age I was when the bad stuff was happening, but I just can't. She does energy work and said she wants to do more of it, it might help me to be able to reach the scared child in me and let her talk.
I'm grateful that my therapist is so patient. She will never push me. I couldn't handle a therapist who pushed. She keeps saying things like did I say anything to make you more afraid? I need to know. I know she cares, I just don't like to hear that anybody cares about me. I sure don't care about me.
Thank you for helping. I know that your wisdom comes from much pain and it's so wonderful that you can reach through it to help me.
Poet
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