Posted by Shortelise on March 20, 2005, at 13:07:13
In reply to Fear of Talking, Relationship, Abandonment... Long, posted by Poet on March 19, 2005, at 12:47:01
Poet, oh, I do feel for you.
I think we have to fight with ourselves to establish trust. The nice things about being in therapy is that we can fight out our inner battles with our T's.
Do you see that?
I believe we can decide to do it. Intellectually decide. It doesn't change the emotions, but to say to one's self, "I am going to do this, I am going to fight this out" might make the difference. I was able to a certain extent to do this myself.
Quitting therapy felt like quitting on myself, and I didn't want to do that. There was a part of me that wanted to stay in my smelly finked-up world where I was comfortably finked-up. But another part of me looked through a crack in the door and thought, hey, I could be out there in the sunshine. So I took that part, the part that wanted to be in the sunshine, and I shook it off, and went to therapy with it, told it to kick me on the butt - behind, I guess that should be, eh? - if I wanted to go back to my smelly, hollow existence.
Poet, go for it. Do it. Dare. Fight all you want, fight it out, fight it through, but get it done. You can!
Poet, for you I am a pair of soft, warm socks. Magic socks. You slip me on your feet, and your feet are safe, and warm, and cared for. No one need know I am there, holding your feet so carefully. (Am I completely nuts???)
ShortE
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