Posted by alexandra_k on March 15, 2005, at 13:54:08
In reply to accepting the wrong me, posted by B2chica on March 15, 2005, at 10:18:33
Yeah, you aren't alone in this.
I had a friend who used to SI and he had dysthymia pretty bad. He had a similar thing for anti-depressant medications. The most important thing in the world to him was his acting (theatre) and poetry. He was afraid that his creativity would be stifled and that he would turn into an 'ordinary' / bland / boring human being.So he didn't take medication.
But he used to get so bad... And I didn't know what to do... And if he ended up killing himself then he most certainly would not have been able to act or write any more.
But he thought that was preferable.
I don't really know what to say that may be helpful. I think the purpose of the medication isn't to 'drug' you - it is more to get your brain working 'normally'. So that you don't feel so bad - but so that the 'good' is preserved.
It can be hard to get the balance right... Sometimes you do end up feeling a bit sedated if they are agressively treating you - just trying to keep you alive. But when that is under control then the meds can be reduced so that you find something that helps prevent you getting into those bad places without leaving you feeling drugged.
Thats the idea anyway (I think).
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