Posted by pinkeye on March 11, 2005, at 13:55:32
My new therapist is very keen on digging everything from childhood and re processing it.
And it is making me so angry and hurt as lot of the old issues that I had dealt and put away with are all coming back.
I am getting very angry with my father, with my mother, and my husband.. and my therapist keeps digging it..
She says it is important to reprocess everything in detail.. and I am getting lots of the old emotions back..
I am feeling lonely, angry with my father for keeping me all to himself and asking me to be there for him all the time. He didn't let me make friends, he didn't let me talk to my mother, he would always want me to study study all the time. He didn't want me to learn anything else..not how to be a good human, not how to be a good wife, not how to be cheerful and happy and friendly. And he made me a mirror of him in many ways.. I hate all that.. And I hate it so much more because now it is making my life with my husband extremely difficult.. My husband is exactly opposite of what my father was, and their views are so very opposite on everything. And I am caught in the middle and very conflicted, and don't know how to choose sides. I don't know what I want, I don't know if I like my father, I don't know if I like my husband. And she encourages me to be angry with my father. Which I don't like at all.
I had put all that away and made peace, but then my new T is digging everything again, and I feel so bad.
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