Posted by Daisym on March 10, 2005, at 10:43:11
In reply to P.P.S., posted by Dinah on March 10, 2005, at 0:59:51
I had sort of this conversation with my therapist yesterday too...he noted that I "did fine" being away and not seeing him for almost a week. Yup, I "did fine." I went really quiet and then told him that it was once again a message that by reaching deep, pulling out the emotional armor, getting into the suit, leading the group, that I'm "doing fine." Thank you. I'll just keep the suit on and the "real" part of me can go back to the shadows. He asked what the real part of me would have done different.
So I told him that at the conference there was a video about attachment and the damage multiple care providers can do to a young child. There was a sad little girl who refused to connect to anyone. The "real" me had tears in her eyes. The Executive Director me got up and left the table. If the real me was acceptable, I would have wiped the tears at the table and no one would have flinched at the ch*nk in the armor.
It is a message we get over and over again. So you are right Dinah, it is hard to know what to say about working. Because I believe like you that you ARE totally acceptable where you are now. But there is so much pressure to prove your worth with work. *sigh* this is one of those "no right answer" things, isn't it?
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