Posted by Susan47 on March 4, 2005, at 13:13:33
In reply to Re: Susan - please post to us » Susan47, posted by pinkeye on March 4, 2005, at 13:00:27
I know you were worried. I'm very very sorry that I worried you, Pinkeye. When I read that you'd stayed two hours late at work because you were worried about me, my heart was incredibly touched and sad that I'd caused you that.
That was a new feeling for me, I've never felt cared for like that ever before. Even my husbands never gave me that feeling of being cared for, Pinkeye, but you did in that post.
That feeling you gave me is worthwhile, Pinkeye, it's a feeling to keep remembering because I want to feel it a lot, it's the feeling to stop someone killing themself. That's what it really really is, knowing the pain and damage I would inflict on other wonderful souls, really knowing and feeling that pain for myself, your pain, Pinkeye, the pain of your worry about me, well, that was incredible. I'll never commit suicide. Someone cares about me. What a concept, what a lovely lovely feeling to have. I want to hold onto it really and never let it go, but I'm afraid again that I can feel it slipping through my fingers even as I bloody type.
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