Posted by pinkeye on March 3, 2005, at 18:57:00
In reply to Re: missing my ex t » pinkeye, posted by Dinah on March 3, 2005, at 18:48:33
Yeah it is true. I just feel that way. Maybe it is a behaviour I picked up with my dad. He kept setting standards for me and asking me to achieve higher and higher, and I did all that. And I felt for a very long time, that my dad didn't approve of me howmuchever I did for him. And I did achieve a lot.. but somehow he kept asking me to go further and further. Whatever I did was never enough. Only after I cracked down completely and became depressed he stopped asking me to achieve futher. Even now, I feel he never unconditionally loves me.. I always had to earn it.
I remember when I first came to this country I used to feel so very bad with my pain, and I would feel so lonely and nobody to even talk to, and I would call up my father and cry my heart out, but my father will keep asking me to hang on and go on.
I sometimes feel like that now with my therapist.. I did everything he asked me to, yet he never approves of me, and doesn't like me. I know it is wrong to compare the two and my therapist was never like my dad, but somehow, that is what I feel.
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