Posted by Bent on February 4, 2005, at 13:12:12
In reply to Re: panic, hate, need help, posted by Daisym on February 4, 2005, at 12:52:25
I felt very comforted by your post. I hope you are right. My T has understood in the past when I get mad at her for simply being human. And in my three years with her I have probably tried to ‘just quit’ once or twice. She knows when I am looking to get out for the wrong reasons. I am so afraid of her rejecting me. Afraid that she will think my reaction to seeing her was unhealthy and that I need to get away from her. Maybe my mind is just racing right now but I keep thinking, what if she thinks I was following her or something. I saw her in two stores. The only two stores I had planned on going to today and she was there! I am sure she saw me. I probably looked so dumb. I wasn’t shopping at that point; I was too distracted and overloaded with anxiety because she was there. Maybe I can call and leave her a message. One minute I want to and the next minute I don’t. I just need her to tell me its ok and she isn’t going to leave me. Geeze that sounds like I am a baby. I hate this. Thanks.