Posted by crushedout on December 21, 2004, at 21:33:08
I've been thinking about it a lot lately, and really, really wishing I hadn't left her. I don't know if I did the right thing. I just don't. I'm very tempted to call her and go in and see her next week.
I'm still seeing the new T but we just don't connect the same way. And we don't end up figuring anything out wrt the old T. And I'm just wondering how I could have made this decision. I'm so mad I did it. What on earth was I thinking? I really need her. She was good for me in so many ways. I probably didn't tell you guys about them because I only post here when I'm bummed out. So how could you know? But this was a huge mistake. I'm letting go of 2 1/2 years of work and starting from scratch and I can't afford to do that right now. Aargh.
I know she wasn't perfect but she had some really amazing qualities. As a T, I mean. I don't know what to do. It feels humiliating to go back. Maybe I've already damaged the relationship too much, anyway.
I don't know how to figure this out.
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thread:432666
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