Posted by Fallen4MyT on December 1, 2004, at 22:10:07
In reply to Re: Feeling sad or something like it..T session » Fallen4MyT, posted by Daisym on December 1, 2004, at 10:31:11
Thanks Daisy and so true, thing is I do not weep or even show it bugs me but I imagine he has clients who do, I just kept doing my therapy talking and all....but yes it would be nice if he said something that didn't make me feel like he doesn't want to see me again. I have cut my sessions down to about 3 times a month from 7-10 (I wanted a new car and got it lol) and then all his trips now...this is all very hard as it is and to just be all blah to me it's going to be bad in the end for me somehow. I feel a black cloud looming and almost wrote him but then said screw it maybe I won't go back. I cannot explain this very well but I feel like he just don't want to see me at all :(
> I hate those sessions, Fallen, especially before a break. I feel like I'm psychically darting around desperately trying to plug into something to hang on to. I think it is the little kid parts of us that wants them to come right out and say, "I will miss you and I promise to come back" while the adult parts push us to be strong and graceful in our good wishes for a nice holiday. I think it must be hard on a therapist to deal with 6 or 8 "weepy" clients in the day before they are leaving. They must have a way to get through the day, but still...in this case it is THEM that is causing the weepy...so maybe you were at the end of a long day?
> You will find a way to reconnect, even if it is over the conversation of how you felt during the session. In the meantime, take care of yourself. Do something fun or soothing. I usually go shoe shopping. :)
> And keep posting. It helps.
> Hugs from me. Really tight. I know this is hard.