Posted by underthecs on November 12, 2004, at 19:47:01
In reply to body memories **may trigger**, posted by underthecs on November 12, 2004, at 19:41:02
that i suffer from unrelenting depression, anxiety, panic attacks that medications do not seem to help. the only thing that does are the benzos, which i abuse horribly at times to help me sleep. i have been on so many different kinds of meds but can't seem to stick with it. it seems like nothing can stop this. i've explained the physical symptoms in therapy, but with no memory... what do you do? and of course there are lots of other "clues" that could indicate that abuse did occur (though no idea who could have done it or what exactly happened... it's just a gross feeling that i get, combined with a lot of other traits shared by adult survivors of child sexual abuse). i'm afraid i'll never know and i will stay stuck in this hell forever. there's just no way out; nothing to process. i can't take it anymore! it only helps to be busy at work, eating, sleeping, drinking, drugging, raging, and sometimes cutting. i don't know what to do.
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