Posted by Pfinstegg on November 4, 2004, at 23:31:16
In reply to More Homework » Pfinstegg, posted by Daisym on November 4, 2004, at 22:45:04
It sounds as though you're having an *analysis* every bit as much as I am! My analyst thinks that it's very hard for people to reach different ego states without almost daily sessions. I think I agree, because I went to another T before him twice a week; it was so superficial by comparison, even though she was a very good and experienced T. I know my analyst feels bad about how costly really good treatment for serious things like csa and PTSD is. I know he wishes it were available to all the people who need it, but he knows that's impossible with insurance the way it is today. I'm glad that my husband and I are both working, and that our son is now in grad school with a fellowship covering all his costs- because it's clear where ALL of my salary goes!
It's such a comfort, and also very helpful, to be able to talk here to another person about these very private experiences. Sometimes I feel I really do need that support to keep going to my analyst; at other times, like now, I can see how wonderfully helpful this experience is, and hope I can communicate that to someone else, who may be in the desperate state I was in, say, two weeks ago!
Rage is hard. I think I'm afraid it will go onto my analyst by transference, and will jeopardize my new-found security. He says, though, whenever rage breaks through, "now we can communicate more fully", or "I'm glad this happened- I want all of you in here". Even with all this encouragement, there is only a certain rate at which my *girl* can progress. I'm in awe of the patience of our therapists: it's such a gift to us.
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