Posted by Pfinstegg on September 26, 2004, at 12:59:57
In reply to Re: contact after termination(a bit long..), posted by lonelygal on September 25, 2004, at 22:38:58
I am wondering WHY you feel you need to see your clinical records. You seem to feel that if they are sort of neutral-sounding, or contain things which you may interpret as negative, that it will confirm in your mind that you are right to be shaky in your trust towards both your new and old Ts. Could it be that you are looking for evidence of caring in the records? I'm afraid no-one ever finds them there. Even if you had a very caring and devoted T, you wouldn't find any proof of that in the records he/she kept, because they aren't for that purpose.
It sounds like feelings of trust and security are really difficult issues for you, as they are for all of us. Getting better involves learning to trust. Would seeing your records do anything positive for you in this regard, or, really, at all? I do take advantage of the law to obtain copies of my medical records, which I find helpful in tracking things like my TSH level, cholesterol, etc. I personally would never want to ask for my files from my analyst. I think they would seem cold, compared to the immensely meaningful, wide-ranging relationship I actually have with him.
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