Posted by Klokka on July 29, 2004, at 20:24:41
In reply to Re: Preparing for a longish break » gardenergirl, posted by Klokka on July 28, 2004, at 15:59:38
I saw him today, and the session went well. I don't think it's really hitting me yet that I'm not going to see him for five weeks - possibly because I need to call him next week (he's on call and then goes on vacation) to try and find a way of buying a lamp for phototherapy without my parents flipping out.
I was very afraid of giving him what I wrote, but managed it anyway. I explained the purpose behind it, and he was a bit confused because I didn't specify whether I wanted him to read it or not, but it's there now and will be dealt with in September. After that I struggled a bit with how to talk about it but not too in-depth, to the point where he said, "Well, shall we play Monopoly for the rest of the session instead?" The joys of seeing a child/adolescent pdoc. I finally managed to talk about one of the incidents which triggered this recent upset. Then we moved on to talking about how so many people I know are going on vacation and what he thinks about that. I was actually able to talk a bit about how I was afraid he really wouldn't "ever come back" (accurate, I'm afraid, because we both have nasty schedules next year and if they don't mesh...) - now THAT was a shock! We talked about trying to find a motivation behind all the negative thoughts about myself, he advised me to keep track of my dreams, and then it was time to reschedule. Our next appointment is September 10th. Yikes. :( At least I can look at it as an almost-birthday gift?
I'm still nervous about the school thing. Even if I retain the same schedule, appointments will only be guaranteed every two weeks (and then there's all those vacations he takes!) because I can only see him on Fridays and he's on call every other Friday. Tuesday's the only day I get out of school at a reasonable hour, and that's at 4... he doesn't seem able/willing to schedule appointments after that. I guess we'll see... I'm going to ask about getting in touch some other way on the weeks which don't work out, but don't expect the response to be positive. My pdoc has always been pretty willing to make things work out, but that is expecting a lot...
After the session, I decided that going shopping was preferable to going home to my parents right away. (And my tennis lessons were just cancelled, so I would've spent the money anyway, right? Perfect justification. I think this vacation of my pdoc's is going to be disastrous for my bank account.) Now I'm just looking for a way to kill time. Five weeks IS an awful long time.
With all that rambling done... Thanks to all who responded, it's much appreciated. :)
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