Posted by Klokka on July 28, 2004, at 15:59:38
In reply to Re: Preparing for a longish break » Klokka, posted by gardenergirl on July 27, 2004, at 23:23:16
Hope your session goes well also. And whatever happens in court... sounds like an interesting day indeed!
Well, I ended up writing what was on my mind. I worried before the fact that I'd be deeply upset if I said I didn't expect him to read it outside of a session and he said he wouldn't, but now I'm not sure I want him to read it at all! Though I think I will force myself to leave it with him so that it will be there for reference in September. It's just that it's so much more in depth than what I normally tell him, and a bunch of weird childhood stuff came up when I tried to think of when I've felt this way before (he often tells me to do this and I actually came up with something for a change.) I haven't told anyone about it before, so I'm very nervous about it. It's not anything very serious, but I've always felt deep shame over it. It's funny how I intended to give the writing to him as a way of feeling heard and comforted, and now I'm just doing it to force myself to talk about it all when we meet again! I don't know whether I'm going to ask him to refrain from reading it until our next session, though. (I'm horrible at hiding things and need to do a lot of cleaning soon, so I definitely can't keep the papers at home for so long.) I just love the timing of all this! At any rate, I've decided that I will tell him how unstable I feel, after all.
Anyway, hope to catch you around sometime tomorrow, and good luck with your day. :)
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