Posted by spoc on April 24, 2004, at 0:06:11
In reply to ((((spoc)))) (nm), posted by pegasus on April 23, 2004, at 23:17:29
Thanks so much Pegasus. It's (obviously) Friday night, and I had just awakened from an unintentional nap to feel that disorientation where you figure out that it's still the same day. And I've been waking up at wee hours lately kind of in a panic or having a revelation that something is over or too late. Then, I may next be struck with regret over something I did. Just now that next thought was worry and regret over all my posting today. And in particular I thought, no! Why did I just say all that in answer to shadows721 (now I regret that too, as I probably will what I'm writing this moment)? The answer to her question was mainly and merely that I analyze and go on and on methodically/perfectionistically from OCD. I was overloaded with somewhat similar threads I wanted to respond to and this is just what happens. Then, deciding to go ahead and post it anyway even though I know I'll regret it is a compulsion, also from OCD...
I felt really stoopid and was sitting here figuratively banging my head against the wall (thinking I should do it literally), when I heard a click. And it was a notice in my mailbox of your post: my first PB (hug)! What timing! I think I could use some constructive criticism from people here at some point, because I don't think I get where I intend to get with them and it feels eerie. There's one obvious component, that's pretty painful because I don't yet know how to improve it. But I won't open that can of peas now and it mostly wouldn't get seen buried in all this anyway. Thanks again, I was feeling very ridiculous and that helped. :- )
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