Posted by crushedout on March 19, 2004, at 20:20:06
In reply to Re: A little better » crushedout, posted by fallsfall on March 19, 2004, at 14:45:47
That makes sense to me. I don't think you thought this, but just in case, I want to clarify that I wasn't meaning to suggest that *I* thought this was evidence you were angry at him, just how he might have interpreted what you said to indicate that you had been. (Can I be any wordier?) I'm pretty sure you understood that, though.
> I certainly do think that he has been instrumental in my feeling worse after sessions than before. But I am hesitant to "blame" him - I am more likely to think that he has some wise plan that hinges on me feeling worse before I can feel better. That even though he is making me miserable, that there is a good and honorable reason why he should be doing that. Guess I idealize him a bit, huh?
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> I *was* asking for his help in not making me feel worse. But I saw it more like feedback to him that I was at the edge of what I could tolerate, so he shouldn't push more or I'd go over the edge. I guess that he could take it as a criticism if he *wasn't* intending in the past to make me feel worse. I just figured that he needed to know where I was so that he could make appropriate decisions about what I "needed".
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