Posted by Karen_kay on December 3, 2003, at 14:37:02
In reply to Re: Therapist gives in once again » Karen_kay, posted by DaisyM on December 2, 2003, at 17:53:34
Daisy,
The comment is no longer important to me. I do need to start dealing with things. I have said it so many times before, and I'm sure I'll say it many times again before I actually do. But, time is running short.
You are right, I didn't read my post. I was afraid to. I'm afraid my therapist doesn't care. I know, he shouldn't have to care aobut me to help me. But, i have a hard time opening up to anyone. No one knows the real me! No one ever cares about what I have to say. My parents never did. My friends don't, unless it's funny or pertains to them in some way. My boyfriend is constantly telling me to shut up. It just seems that no one wants to know what is going on inside my head. Hell, even I don't want to know. I can't even keep track. I don't want to be some sympathy case for anyone to feel sorry for. And I don't want to be cold. But, I'm afraid I am. I just wish i could start my life all over again. With different parents, parents who loved me and took care of me. Is that really too much to ask? It just seems so overwhelming at times. Like I have so much on my plate, I don't know where to start. It's funny, the only reason I'm going to school is so that my mom will be proud of me. And she's not helped me out a bit. She's never once told me she's proud of me. I just feel like I'm living my life for everyone else but me. I guess maybe that's why I'm in this mess, huh?
Thanks so much for your continued support hun! But, these words don't make me look so beautiful now, do they?
Karen
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