Posted by karen_kay on November 7, 2003, at 17:59:03
In reply to Re: Daisy!!! (long one here) » karen_kay, posted by DaisyM on November 7, 2003, at 17:22:14
I don't hate my dad. I idolize my father. I am just very angry right now. This is the first time that I have admitted to myself and others what happened. This is the first time I have begun to remember other things that happened and I am just really angry and hurt an dconfused. I feel a little betrayed by my therapist beause he promised to be there for me when this started to happen and he isn't. I think I am transfering the feelings of betrayal from my father towards my therapist, but I still think he isn't doing all that he promised.
When my T made the comment aobut my phone call I just said," yeah, I've been climbing the walls." It was ass we were walking back to his office. I was actually hoping he wouldn't even mention it. I called him to see if I could get an earlier apointment. I never call him after hours or on weekends, I only have his business number. I don't want to ask him about extra support, because I don't want to be needy. I don't want to be a little girl, I want to be a woman. A lot of times in the past when I have needed him, i refused to call. For instance, I tried to kill myself. Then next day, I tried to schedule an emergency appointment. Without going into details, he answered," Is an extra appointment necesary?" I was like "I think so." When I got there, he put me in the hospital. See, maybe he really is just a jerk. Then I think, we all make mistakes and maybe he knows what he is doing. I've really opened up to him and I do trust him more thna anyone else, but not as much as I feel I should. But, it is so hard to trust anyone. I don't think I could ever learn to lean on anyone, as they always seem to let me down. But, I think I'll stick with him and try. Karen
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