Posted by DaisyM on September 27, 2003, at 16:49:25
Do you think there are stages to the therapy process? I'm trying to figure out why I have such strong reactions after a session...instead of during the actual conversation that took place. Especially when I didn't feel particularly emotional, initially, upon leaving. It is like it sneaks up on you, water boiling over, etc. I keep thinking about it as three different sets of emotions - Pre-session: Fear; During Session: control; After: Train wreck.
It might be a trust issue...not that I don't trust my therapist (I've been working with him for 5 months and it is my first time in therapy. But in sharing things I don't usually share, or even allow myself to dwell on, I keep wondering if I'm trying to tell myself that I shouldn't be doing this. It's like I don't trust myself. And I struggle with the aftermath train wreck because it is painful...and makes no intellectual sense to me.
*sigh* Gosh, this is hard. Self-imposed torture. I know I have to "go through it" to come out on the other side...but REALLY, someone should write down all the answers in a book somewhere. Of course, the fact that I'm not really sure what the question is could be a problem, but still! :)
I'd appreciate advise as to how (I don't even know if it is possible) to have the train wreck happen during the session, when help is readily available, instead of after.
poster:DaisyM
thread:263778
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