Posted by Pfinstegg on August 27, 2003, at 19:42:57
No-one has posted on this board for about 10 days, so I'm going to start up again with- how could you guess- TRANSFERENCES. I hope that Morgen, fallsfall, stebby, Still Hurting, Dinah, Judy1 and, hopefully, many others will contribute!
Everyone seems to have different things which are particularly hard to deal with when it comes to transferences. I feel safe, and can communicate openly and fully, when I am feeling loving. The part that is extremely hard for me is when I feel full of rage and hate for my analyst: I don't know why these feelings come up with such intensity, other than that they really belong to much earlier periods of my life. I feel so ashamed, and dread coming into his office; even worse, I start feeling sort of detached, and wonder why I am going there. For his part, he reiterates that he is asking ALL of me to be there, and that, for me to feel better, I need to accept these feelings just as he does. It sounds so reasonable when I am writing it , but it is SO hard to deal with when it is happening. It happened today in full force, and I still feel depressed and full of self-hatred because of it, although I am trying my best to enlarge my viewpoint so that I will be more self-accepting.
I have found the discussions on this topic so helpful- they have given me a lot more courage to just go in there and let whatever happens happen. I hope you will all continue to share your experiences here- I'm sure I'm not the only one who is counting on them!
Pfinstegg
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