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Re: ONE llurpsienoodle

Posted by nadezda on August 17, 2008, at 16:29:43

In reply to Re: ONE, posted by llurpsienoodle on August 17, 2008, at 12:48:40

Hi, Llurpsie.

The flight started in a bad way,in that I had spoken to the airline and they said the plane had a particular layout that I was comfortable with-- but, as we were boarding, they announced they had changed it, and substituted a much more crowded and unpleasant lay-out that was exactly the one I was trying to avoid. Plus my bf and I weren't sitting together unless you count being across the isle, with one seat a half length behind the other.

So as I was freaking out, and was trying to get my bf to get off the plane with me-- and my bf was trying to insist that it would be all right-- this woman right behind us, informed me that I had "rockin' seats, and you should be happy about them." At which point, I literally said to her, "Um-- shut up!--this is my issue, not yours, so keep out of it." It was pretty embarrassing, although I think she sort of deserved it-- I wish I hadn't been quite that rude. I think using that expression is really awful. I would never do it in my right mind.

However, I was so drugged by then, having taken large quantities of several anti-anxiety drugs, plus a few drinks, that I fell sleep right after takeoff. (My bf prevailed on this poor guy who unwillingly gave up his window seat, so we could sit together.)

The rest of the trip was amazingly uneventful, from which I draw the conclusion that I have, actually, found a dose of drugs that will subdue even a raving gorilla.

I don't like being so out of it-- but actually it's worth it not to be terrified and retraumatized.

I'm not overly excited about being here yet-- although I'm trying to convince myself--well, actually, maybe I'm not trying very hard right now-- that it's worth it. I guess I should put more effort into making it a good experience, dbt-ally.

Maybe it's a let-down after all the effort I poured into convincing myself that I could get through the takeoff and flight without falling apart.

Nadezda


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