Posted by KathrynLex on August 11, 2018, at 13:06:42
In reply to Fell off the wagon, posted by Prefect on August 11, 2018, at 10:24:59
I used to self medicate too, but lucky(?) for me, I have debilitating panic disorder, and the drinking ultimately made it MUCH worse. A night of heavy drinking led to a full day of panic, anxiety, and all the fun filled side effects that come with those issues. Derealization in particular, and that scares me the most. Needless to say, I don't drink anymore. Is it possible the drinking could be giving you temporary relief (which is sooooo nice) but maybe causing problems with your condition?
The idea of going to a mood clinic is an interesting one. I've thought about doing that myself. (Like you, my condition is resistant o SSRIs and SNRIs. In about a week and a half, I'm going to try an MAOI, which are supposed to be a lot more potent, but they come with a very long list of dietary restrictions. If you can find the right mood clinic, you'll be surrounded by understanding professionals who can actually help. Maybe try calling a few and ask how they would plan to treat you if you decide to stay with them.
> Last sunday I fell off the wagon again, after full abstinence since april. For a week, I didn't go to work, and all I did is knock myself out with booze and put myself to sleep. Yesterday I gathered my will and stopped, and now have been fully alcohol free for 24 hours.
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> I'm so tired of this. I'm not an alcoholic, it's just the only thing that gives me relief from whatever this is that I have. None of the serotonin drugs have worked. Currently on the highest available dose of Trintellix, and it's done about as much as a vitamin pill I can get at a health food store.
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> My ex-wife thinks I should have myself admitted to a mood clinic. But I don't even know how to explain my condition to them. Depression? Anxiety? none of it fully fits. My diaphragm pushes up into my chest the moment I open my eyes, my head tremors all day, my eyes don't properly focus, I'm agitated and can't concentrate. I have this constant urge to roll my left eye to the middle to stop sensory overload when I'm driving. How do you explain all this to a pdoc? They don;t know what to do with me. All they give me are damn SSRIs.
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> I'm so tired.
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