Posted by Trevpr on July 1, 2013, at 16:07:28
I've been on many meds, and so far, none has helped with my apathy/anhedonia/low libido/emotional numbness. Ritalin helped once or twice for about 15 minutes. The MAOIs did not help. Dopamine agonists made me irritable. Supplements had no noticeable effect. SSRIs/SNRIs don't seem to help obviously (I have avoided them). NRIs have no effect besides elevating heart rate and inducing panic symptoms.
ECT has been the only thing to help. After 11 rounds of bilateral shock, I was only helped a bit for like 2-3 weeks. I did not have memory loss or cognitive issues after my treatments, however, I'm so burnt out on ECT that I really need a break from it. It isn't very fun to get shocked every other day week after week after week... It's almost as bad as the anhedonia/numbness/depression/loss of libido.
I probably should have done more ECTs, but I couldn't get myself to do any more for the time being. Maybe when I muster the courage I'll go in for another series of shocks, but for now, I just can't stand any more.
Does this apathy ever go away? I've had it for 1.5 years. I'm very young, and would really like to find a mate in life and care about my family and feel truly good and all that... Do I just have to keep getting shocked over and over and over to feel like myself again or will it go away on its own? Maybe this isn't the best place to ask, since you are all treatment resistant... But 1.5 years is a long time to be numb.
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