Posted by AMD on April 5, 2013, at 20:52:22
In reply to Re: Hell » AMD, posted by Phil on April 5, 2013, at 20:24:36
It is certainly not just anxiety, but the anxiety is not helping. I just want the world to go away until my brain chemistry stabilizes. And that's what's keeping me from completely melting down. That it will stabilize and that even though I can't feeling it now, my quick-witted, clear-thinking self will return soon. I hope so. Because this must be depression, I can't even get out of bed or make it to the gym. I'm going to try to force myself to tomorrow, but when even a workout doesn't clear my head (and I tried yesterday) I know I'm in bad shape.
I will try to keep a positive mindset. Still, it'd be a lot easier if I was gradually feeling better. But it usually just happens "likethat" -- I am depressed, and suddenly it just lifts. I can feel it lift. I'm waiting and praying that that moment comes this time but it's not here now.
Thank you for your words of support, they do help.
amd
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