Posted by SLS on September 18, 2012, at 8:44:44
In reply to What would we be really doing?, posted by ihatedrugs on September 18, 2012, at 0:41:08
> I wonder what would we be doing if we didn't suffer from this illness?
> I would be working in my studio. Spend summers in France partaking in painting workshops. No anxiety, no fear, no tears, no insomnia.
> No more envying those who enjoy sunsets...
> Oh well,
You really have an appreciation for life and are still full of positive energy. I hope you can soon enjoy those sunsets. You deserve it.
As for me, I don't know what I would do right now if I were to become well today. My perceptions and outlook change dramatically when I am in remission such that my plans in life change as well. So, right now, I am uncertain as to what I will want to do as I approach remission. Either way, my goal is to return to employment. Too many years have passed for me to go back to school. I am looking for financial independence and stability. When I was younger, I wanted to become a MD/PhD in psychiatry and the neurosciences. I had a passion for medicine and healing people. Gone.
Still, I look forward to a bright future and enjoying sunsets. Right now, the sun is rising.
Some see things as they are and ask why.
I dream of things that never were and ask why not.
- George Bernard Shaw