Posted by g_g_g_unit on February 22, 2012, at 1:43:18
In reply to Re: how did you know when it was time for hospital?, posted by mellow on February 21, 2012, at 10:31:26
> All of this is spot on to why I had to go in. It was a great experience and I would be dead had I now gotten help. From my judgement of your post over the last year you do not seem to be getting much better. It may help to get a fresh perspective on an inpatient basis. Your doctor is obviously already feeling a bit inadequate because he sent you to that medical school doctor last year if I recall.
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> I would get yourself checked out if you have been feeling suicidal for more than a few weeks. If ending it gives you a sense of relief then you'd better do something. That is scarey. Seeing a new doctor might not be a bad thing. You haven't dramatically improved or anything since you have been posting here so it wouldn't be a great loss. I wouldn't be too tied to a diagnosis. I talented group of doctors could make a better judgement than you would think regardless if it is a public clinic.
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> I guess what I'm saying is don't give up. I'm sorry that you aren't feeling well. I know it can be bummer to be down in that black hole.
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> mellowWow mellow, I'm extremely touched that you've been paying attention to my case and are able to recall details like my referral to that professor.
To be honest, I've felt suicidal for the better part of a year, which is why the prospect of continuing in outpatient treatment isn't a *huge* deal. I also think part of that suicidality derives from not being able to treat my attentional problems (in addition to everything else), which is why I would be reluctant to give up seeing my psychiatrist, even temporarily.
My meeting with said professor - who ran a private hospital - wasn't particularly encouraging. He wanted me on a high dose of Lexapro and Zyprexa, and did not want me on any stimulants. He was against MAOIs, and recommended ECT instead. I know it's just one man's opinion, but it felt emblematic of the kind of care I might receive in hospital.
Regardless, I'm meeting with a new GP on Friday (my old one recently left town for good), so I'll see if he possibly has any ideas/links.
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