Posted by bleauberry on February 21, 2012, at 5:37:14
In reply to how did you know when it was time for hospital?, posted by g_g_g_unit on February 20, 2012, at 5:40:10
Well, I knew it was time for the hospital when an ambulance showed up and they were after me. My talk of how I was going to kill myself scared people enough to call 911. So basically that's it....suicide related behavior will make the hospital thing happen. Not that it means anything, because it is not the hospital's goal to get you well....only to 'stabilize' the situation enough that you aren't going to pull a trigger today. I have known one person who came out of the hospital with a new life, started him on prozac in the hospital and had an immediate resposne, but most stories are not like that. Beds are limited, it is expensive, and only the worst of the worst get to stay. I was still nearly suicidal when they let me go. A week stay was considered a fairly long one.
I say it all the time, but in cases like yours I think it is most important....have to break out of the limited box of what psychiatrists can do and add more approaches to the whole. Getting out of the house and getting engaged in any kind of social activity, even just taking walks around WalMart for exercise or something....anything....has to be done. For starters. Food choices real important. Herbs and supplements can do what meds can't, or can make meds work better. And yes, depakote can make someone feel worse.
To me it sounds like you are 'stuck'. So the goal is to get 'unstuck', which means doing something, moving forward, changing stuff. Believe me I know as well as anyone how hard that seems, and it is, but staying sick is harder.
> Just curious if there was a breaking point? I understand that certain circumstances - i.e. genuine suicidal intentions, psychosis, catatonic/vegetative depressions, being completely unable to care for yourself, etc. - would automatically warrant hospitalization.
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> Since I live at home and don't have any real responsibilities, it's something I've managed to avoid, though I do feel like there have been times where it would have been in my favor.
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> I'm just at the point now where, like, every daily stressor feels insurmountable. I live from hour-to-hour, day-to-day and I can't picture going weeks on end like this anymore. I have a plan to end my life, which I find reassuring to think about, but I have no intentions to act on it at this point.
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> I don't know if the Depakote is making me feel worse. I generally tend to feel best for the 2 hours after each tiny 5mg Parnate dose, and then fall into (stimulant?) withdrawal.
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> My hesitations are a) that my psychiatrist has said he wouldn't be able to treat me himself if I was admitted to hospital, and b) I don't trust the public psychiatric system in Australia (my insurance doesn't cover private). I just worry I'd end up overmedicated, though I'm not sure if that's a realistic concern. I also think I'd have more chance being diagnosed with leprosy than ADHD comorbid with OCD.
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> So I don't know if it would just be better to carry on the way I have been - i.e. doing my best to distract myself and hang in there - while remaining in private, out-patient treatment.
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