Posted by morgan miller on July 31, 2011, at 9:46:06
In reply to Re: Cyclothymia: SLS and others. Floatingbridge, posted by polarbear206 on July 31, 2011, at 8:54:47
FB, I enjoyed hearing about your story. It's interesting to picture the younger you living on the edge. It sounds like you were almost punk rock back then. Anyway, thanks for sharing.
As far as the fears go that you are experiencing, they are likely, at least in part, manifestations of deeply rooted stuff that just happened to start impacting you and coming to the surface later in life. These types of fears, as with things like OCD and anxiety, are coping mechanisms we use to protect ourself and manage our emotions. In a sick and twisted way, we end up making ourselves suffer, sort of punishing ourselves, so we cannot feel good and fully experience life. This way of coping is a result of the hurt that left us with deep pain and sadness. If we feel anxiety, develop great debilitating fears, and develope crippling OCD, we prevent ourselves from being vulnerable to truly feeling things in life, from being exposed to the world around us. We do this out of fear of being hurt the way we have been hurt in the past. If we remain in a state of suffering and torture, we never are able to feel good enough to be vulnerable to getting crushed and dissappointed by life as we had before. These are deep emotions in our psyche/subconscious that drive these self destructive coping mechanisms. So, I would understand why most would have a very difficult time understanding how we could do something like this. These things that drive us are intangible, they are not concrete like neurotransmitters and such. They are likely a result of the extremely complex system as a whole. It's just not one of those things scientists can pinpoint and draw pictures of.
I hope some of this made sense. I'm sure you already have a good grasp on these concepts. I also hope you don't think I am pinning everything you experience on our very flawed psychological coping mechanisms. I am a beliver that genetic predispositions and maldeveloped biology play a major role. I just believe that things are far more complex than most people want to even begin to try to understand.
Morgan
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