Posted by g_g_g_unit on January 9, 2011, at 3:58:47
In reply to Re: I think Parnate is making me actually worse.. » Sailboat77, posted by europerep on January 7, 2011, at 6:13:52
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> To be honest, in the long run (!), suicide has >become a viable option for me. I have basically >been ill since age 10 - first anxiety, which made >me miss out on almost everything because I didn't >dare leaving the house, then from 16 on >depression, which made me miss out on almost >everything because I just cannot enjoy myself or >anything I do. the others at my age, and even >those who are much younger than me, are *so* far >ahead of me in terms of everything that makes up >actual life, I will never be able to make up for >all these years... :(..
>As someone who's roughly your age (and who's been unwell since 17 or so), this is something I invariably try not to think about, but it's true . . . at this point, even if I do get better in my 30s, the amount of time and life experience that's been lost to this disease is enough to turn my stomach. It almost feels like the prospect of getting well is as fraught with conflict as remaining depressed.
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