Posted by delna on October 25, 2009, at 14:26:11
In reply to Re: Those who quit Parnate...what r u on now?, posted by kirbyw on October 25, 2009, at 6:13:33
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Rick,a reply BUT possible **trigger** Please feel free to ignore this.I wish the subject line was longer....:)
Hi,
> I have been following some, but not all of your posts. It seemed as if you were getting better with Parnate
Yes, me too. Just a little bit but it was so erratic that overall I was till suicidally depressed.
> Parnate side effects can also be no fun, including insomnia, tiredness during the day, lack of sex drive, etc etc. but I weigh the side effects against the overall severity of the depression. I have learned that any side effect is bearable. What is not bearable is the depression at its worst.
I agree. but I cannot tolerate sedation. I think that alone can worsen my suicidal feelings and push me over the edge. Insomnia, I love. Sexual dysfunction etc i don't care about. Luxuries for the well :)
>Yesterday I had a good day on Parnate, today was not quite so good, hopefully tomorrow will be better. I know that tonight I will have trouble sleeping, but at least I don't have to get up early. I will try to enjoy my insomnia as much as possible by keeping busy with internet, TV, household chores or whatever, anything to pass the time until I tire myself out.
TRIGGER ALERT ****** Please ignore this if you are feeling slightly unsure...
I guess I am just really fed up and can't live with being erratic. It's just not an option for me anymore. How can i ever build a life if I am not stable? Plus taking Geodon really spoiled me- I sincerely wish I had never taken it. It made me feel what it felt like to be well/normal and now I want that so desperately. It's like tasting blood I guess. Before Geodon, I was 'content' just to have an average (terrible) day, do nothing and sleep most of the time. Now I am intolerant of being in such a state. Maybe I have become greedy. But it's normal (or near normal) or nothing at all. (sorry for the morbid thought)> I realize that every diagnosis is different and and every person's biochemistry is different so Parnate may not be for you, but I just wanted to throw in my two cents worth.
Thanks for sharing!
> (By the way, I worked in India for three months in 2006)
Doing what? What was it like??Thanks again Rick and I certainly hope I didn't trigger any bad feelings
Love
D
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