Posted by garnet71 on June 24, 2009, at 22:21:10
In reply to Re: Help - trigger - scared, posted by desolationrower on June 24, 2009, at 20:36:29
Ok, so I'm not scared of being psychotic anymore.lol. I feel normal today, and better because I ended up going back to sleep instead of school. Wow, all that from talking to him on the phone 5-10 minutes. I had an influx of visions of repressed memories, well just little images, popping up in my mind all night. None were bad, just objects/picture images.
Then I had the most colorful dreams about my childhood. Like some people but lots of things like a car i remember from growing up and sneaking out of the house, the steps of someones house i used to visit when little, and people sitting around a dining room table-this guy got up and I confronted him and he left. I don' tremember what we talked about, but i remember it was significant, and that no one was upset. But it seemed we were talking about something that was very upsetting-but he was nonchalant when he left, with a smirk on his face and I felt no anger or emotion. But he looked like no one I knew. Why all these images of people I dont know?
But in the dreams, everything was bright purple and red and pretty and flowing fabrics everywhere and open windows with warm breezes flowing. I never had such colorful dreams that I can remember. They were so vivid and amazing; they felt good. I don't think it was the d-amp, cause I'd taken it for 2 months before, and it didn't effect my dreams though I feel like it makes me sleep better.
Well he called me today to come in at the last minute, but i wouldn't have got theere in time. I didn't bother telling him about my anxiety on voice mail when I called back, will wait until I see him again. I just won't take the d-amp next time i talk to him, and take lots of xanax. lol
I feel so much better after my scary moment, having heard from you all : ) Loved hearing your opinions, and no morgan, I wasn't upset about the xanax stuff!!! I forgot for a while that anxiety can bring those fears. I had anxiety for a while that didn't evoke fear or thoughts or worry, it was more or less physical. I guess i have several types of anxiety.
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