Posted by Nadezda on June 24, 2009, at 14:24:12
In reply to Re: Help - trigger - scared, posted by garnet71 on June 24, 2009, at 11:35:06
Hi, Garnet.
I also agree with Seldom and others. I've had reactions such as you're having with certain Ts, and it can happen. It's more a mix of you and that person-- there is probably some important characteristic or way of relating that stirs up some deep conflict or painful experience or set of experiences-- and they are evoked in such an intense way that it's very overwhelming and frightening.
My advice, honestly, would be not to see this T again and to find another pdoc, at least temporarily, until you can find a more permanent one. I think that possibly each encounter with him will reevoke whatever emotional configuration you've gotten in touch with-- and won't help you resolve it.. Whatever it is, it will change over time-- if you work with it. But it seems very raw and immediate now-- which I don't think is good for you--
I don't think you're becoming psychotic-- but I do think it's best to protect yourself, because whatever is kicking this up seems really upsetting and disruptive.
You may be drawn back to reexperience whatever it is with him-- but I truly hope you can resist that and look for someone else who doesn't evoke these feelings, for any further therapy. It's not that all psychodynamic therapy or therapists will bring these feelings out-- Very useful and important work can be done without going through this kind of destabilizing thing.
Try not to frighten yourself with thoughts of being psychotic--or to overanalyze what went wrong. It may simply be impossible to understand right now.. Howver, xanax might not be a bad idea, to relieve the anxiety and to keep things at a manageable level.
Nadezda
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