Posted by Cyclothymic on October 21, 2007, at 20:51:23
In reply to Re: Cyclothymia + mood stabilizers, posted by bipolarized on October 21, 2007, at 16:55:33
You make a good point about not being prescribed something in your first visit. Unfortunately, it seems that's what pdocs are all about these days: selling meds.
So far I'm batting .500 with mine -- a leadoff extra-base hit with the Wellbutrin for anxiety/depression, and a strikeout on three pitches with the Trazadone for sleep problems.
I think it is courageous of you to discuss your thoughts of suicide. I have never come close to doing it, but it is something I started to think about A LOT during my last big down cycle -- just the feeling that I was complete failure and my life was worthless and that this unhappiness would never subside.
I have thought about suicide since I was in my later years of high school when I would go through my down phases, and I didn't think anything was wrong with me because I was sure that "everybody contemplates suicide." But after coming out with my situation to some of my closest friends, it appears I was wrong. And from what I have read, thoughts of suicide are a common sign of bipolar disorder.
All I can say about keeping yourself out of a hole is to do things that are meaningful to you, things that you really want to do, instead of just going through the motions and doing what others want you to do. Best of luck to you getting back on track.
I really wouldn't mind hearing how others have felt when they were down in a hole, and how they dug themselves out of it. It might make some of us feel good to know there are people out there who can relate to our ups and downs or, better said, peaks and valleys.