Posted by linkadge on August 19, 2007, at 23:01:54
In reply to Re: Lost years » linkadge, posted by Amandafran on August 19, 2007, at 20:51:27
>The problem is that I dont want those memories. >I want to fix them and I cant. I have spent many >years without friends because of who I am..and >no one liked me for me...and I never knew what >was wrong with me...I liked me for me..but then >started to hate myself because everyone else >did. I spent so long with no friends..and even >now...now that I know what is going on with >me...Im still friendless.
Perhaps therapy can help the situation? I have found that group therapy can be very benificial, and can bring one closer to people who are in similar situations.
I am not the authority on how to make friends, unfortunately, but if you're ever in the area you're welcome for tea. (we can make that virtual tea if you like)
>I live with 2 dogs and a Kitten and they are my >only friends.. I have gotten to where I dont >even want to have kids because I dont want to >pass on any traits of mine...I dont want my kid >to have the same problems I have had.I know the feeling. I don't want kids for the same reason. If you can find the help you need, then maybe you will feel that life is worth living even if it means taking meds.
>I was adopted and no nothing about my birth >family and my mom's condition at the time I was >born and that would help me out a lot if I could >figure it out. But my relationships with my >friends and family have been torn up through the >years...my mom and I dont get along...(we do >now...now that she knows for a fact that I >am "sick") that I have a label stuck to myself.I know how such illnesses can tear families apart. I do know that such wounds can mend though. It can be hard to trust others when you cannot predict your own behavior.
>I want to be able to change my past...to go back >and explain to people what went wrong...and to >fix things but I cant..and that is what upsets >me. IN case you cant tell, I have a hard time >letting go of things...and change is really hard >for me ..even if it is for the good.
Hopefully, you can find ways to accept what happened. Sometimes it is only when you feel better than you recognize what was wrong. If you believe you have had a real problem, you may find it easier to forgive yourself.
>I have spent my entire life sick....not only >mentally but I am good at being sick. I dont >know how to be well. Does that make sense?
It does.
Linakdge
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