Posted by corafree on January 31, 2007, at 7:45:27
In reply to Re: Too sick; gonna have NB and dead mind » corafree, posted by ronaldo on January 31, 2007, at 3:58:35
I'd have to say I'm suicidal. I'm not gonna' do that again. It's a trick to get hospitalized. More important to me; I won't be treated for the proper illness.
The tx I got when had the one, was very pro-active on my part. Damn it was hard. It was an all suicide ward and the two docs looked and laughed when I said 'nervous breakdown'. It was me who kept banging on closed sliding windows, demanding healthy food, requesting expedience w/ medication. No one knew what they were doing. They just thought I was some crazy old lady. I was unable to walk fast or carry myself and looked old. I couldn't stand up straight. I was sallow and weak. They thought I was just an old burnt out junkie or somethin' I guess.
Back 2 now, I've told my doctor and my caseworker and my therapist and they don't think it means sh*t I guess; I mean I've told them I'm feelin' like same as onset of NB had 2yrs back.
I'm getting too tired to keep asking 4 their help now, and am feelin' angry w/ their tunnel vision.
tksR, cf
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