Posted by liliths on November 20, 2006, at 12:20:03
In reply to “spilling” » liliths, posted by pseudoname on November 19, 2006, at 16:07:27
hello... you can't imagine (though probably you can) how comforting it is to read your words :)
at this point I'm just waiting to hear from the 'committee'. The person I'm working with at PRN (Physicians Resource Network: the name of this faceless machine) assures me 'the worst is over'. Easy for her to say, I know, though she has been quite nice and supportive each time I grow hysterical on her LOL
I only hope they're not allowed to 'demand' I make medication changes to accommodate them, because I simply won't... and yes, I guess at that point I would have to look into taking legal action. All this for a lousy license I earned the right for months ago! And as I've said, the experience has destroyed my interest, as well as my memories, of practicing. I've forgotten most of it from sheer stress alone, much less the passage of time. I'm definitely of the 'don't use it, lose it' ilk
Their pdoc based his opinions on a single visit, while I've been working with mine for 5 years.
Since treating depression with anything unusual seems to throw them, I doubt they'd take my interest in buprenorphine seriously. More likely, since it's usually used to treat opoid addicton, they'd think I was 'addicted' to my pain meds and REALLY put me through the wringer. As it is, I'm NOT listed as a substance abuser... not yet anyway
I try to laugh but really I no longer give a damn. I'm in that place that says if I don't get back up, they can't knock me down again. Hopefully that will improve. If not, well, I've already lived a full and long life with nothing to look forward to. And I just need to feel 'in control' of something. I'm not making threats. I wouldn't do that to anyone... particularly someone like you who has been so helpful :) But it IS always with me as an option.
I will post an update - probably on this thread - when the initial verdict comes in. Maybe I'll be REALLY lucky and they'll just issue me my license! No harm in being optimistic (on 'paper' anyway)
I've come down with some bug - a perfect excuse to withdraw - though frustrating. Certainly not helping my mood
I hope things pick up for you!!!
If I may ask, how much buprenorphine are you currently taking and what else do you take?
here's to good luck for both of us!!
namaste,
lilith> Hey, lillith.
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> > sorry for spilling... Dealing with talking about this would make it impossible
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> Well, I'm glad you shared. You've had an outrageous ordeal! I'm so sorry for you being in that situation. And pdocs can make such dumb decisions -- taking you off your meds because you're doing well! OMG. Arrgh!
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> > Thank you so much!
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> You're very welcome. I encourage people to print out the studies on that Tips page and show them to their docs if they're interested in buprenorphine.
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> > I've barely left the house for months.
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> Been there.
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> > c) or d) are the most likely outcomes. My biggest concern is his 'recommendation'.
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> I don't envy you dealing with bureaucracy or all-powerful, arbitrary pdocs. Best of luck with it all. I draw encouragement from my next-door neighbor, who was fired -- and PROSECUTED -- for job-related problems. But he got a good attorney, counter-sued, got his unemployment benefits, got almost all of the charges dropped, and is even on track to getting re-hired (according to insiders). So winning against these faceless behemoths CAN happen. Keep the faith. I hope your situation improves soon. For that matter, I hope mine does, too! lol :-)
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> > and thanks again for the links, you've been very helpful :)
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> Thanks for saying so.
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