Posted by jodi k on July 22, 2006, at 17:10:08
In reply to Re: Cyclothymia mood stabilizers, posted by KarenRB53 on April 8, 2006, at 8:30:31
I was diagonosed with mild bipolar disorder just last week. I got on the internet to find out it's called cyclothymia! My dad had a bipolar experience a couple of years ago, and I knew I didn't have what he did. He really got "high". Not sleeping, spending lots of money, talking about sex a lot, starting arguments, and thought he was filled with the Holy Spirit. He went to the dr. and wouldn't accept any medications to help him. I was shocked to find out I have the same thing in milder form.
I began seeing a counselor 2 months ago and am having better communication with people who have run over me for years. But I was still depressed. I have been on 20 mg lexapro for about 6 months, after being on prozac for years. I was given
xanax for anxiety and have been on 100 mg of trazadone for 10 years till it was "upped" to 200 mg. last fall. That was all from a family dr. Now a psychiatrist has added 5 mg of abilify to that 5 days ago.I have a son who got picked up for 4 owi's in 1 1/2 months last fall. I really rocked down after that. But even when he finished his jail time, I didn't feel happy about it. I guess that's part of why I was diagnosed with this disorder.
The first day on abilify, I felt really bad. I got on the "net" the night before starting it and read the side effects about it and almost went into a panic mode. But after realizing I'm not having any of the bad effects, I think I'm really feeling lots better. Either that, or I have extremely high expectations of the medicine. I've already had people who have visited with me on the phone tell me how normal I sound.
I guess now all I am worried about is weight gain. I have low self esteem in that area anyway. I am not over weight now, but am never happy with my weight. I could be a scarecrow and feel fat.
Anyway, that's my story so far. I go back in to talk about the abilify a week from Monday. I'm praying that this will be my answer!
Jodi K
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