Posted by Doug_Saving_The_team on April 9, 2006, at 12:06:23
In reply to Re: ADs have ruined me. whom else has been HURT by AD?, posted by Meri-Tuuli on April 9, 2006, at 7:07:57
Meri,
You have by far been the most helpful post. It is wonderful to hear from someone who truly understands what I have been going through because you have experienced the exact same thing. I know if I continue on ADs, I will only further waste my life away in NO achievement, NO progress and COMPLETE apathy. I am saving your advice and will keep it close to mind as I fight this WAR as I go off the EVIL ADs and try to REBUILD my life. It's SO PAINFUL -- I should be so many places right now that involve high achievement. But now where am I? I am forced to half-lies to fit in with my friends about where they are going to work after school. They are going to great training programs at ibanks, private equity shops and VC firms, but me? I tell a half-truth. I have to in order to save face. But that only reinforces how difficult all of this is because I have to deal with seeing people who I know I should be WAY more accomplished than, and know that I cannot get a job that some person with half the talent could get. I'M A SLAVE TO THE AD's, I'm TRAPPED in a life I should NEVER have led these last 4 YEARS!! Thinking about the perspective of being 70 is all great, but what about NOW? NOW is the worst part, and the most CRITICAL. It sounds like you and I will be going through similar things rebuilding our lives. I want to be BETTER NOW! In fact, I want to skip graduation ceremonies so I have an extra WEEK to get off ADs faster! f*** me...
But thank you Meri. You are the first who can really understand. Please stay on this board. I plan to be posting throughout the next year. Let's FIGHT this together!!
Doug
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