Posted by Doug_Saving_The_team on April 9, 2006, at 11:56:47
In reply to Re: ADs have ruined me. whom else has been HURT by » Doug_Saving_The_team, posted by SLS on April 9, 2006, at 6:44:09
hi Scott, thank you very much for your thoughtful post. I am not experiencing any anxiety right now; basically the ADs have caused me to be more numb and out of touch than I ever thought possible.
Regarding AD combinations, I've been hearing that the "magic bullet" will come for 4 years now. People have told me it's all about what combination of medication and gave me hope by saying I will eventually find it. So what did I do? I kept changing medications for 4 years now and I still know I wasted the last 4 years.
There's no guarantee things will get better. The ADs might have permanently impaired my ability to perform. Thinking about it from the perspective of when I'm much older doesn't help now. Depression may influence my thoughts, but I've had four years to develop an objective perspective of what has gone on, and unquestionably I have wasted these four years. Four years makes up almost 20% of my entire life -- what a catastrophic loss!! And now I'm going home a failure, an education that with another semester would push it to $200,000, and so many goals left unfulfilled. People should know about the destruction ADs can wreak. They should know that there is not always a "magic combination" -- I've been in school and have an objective measure to follow performance by grades and there has been no improvement on different combinations, only worse and worse as it CHIPS AWAY AT MY PYSCHE and destroys my confidence and self-worth over time.
My pain...
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