Posted by adamCanada on August 25, 2005, at 1:13:45
In reply to Re: Accutane Ruined my life, posted by stresser on August 23, 2005, at 21:58:42
theyhappened a month or more into treatment and my lovely family kept forcing me to take it despite me saying i wasnt feeling too well.
Then i did research found out the suicidal truth of how thousands of ppl KILLED themselves from this stupid sick drug. so i stopped taking it.
at that point the depression was in a more mildish level. I was still kind of myself.
But no one gave me the warning of not taking vitamins suppliments until long after stopping it(as it is still in your system).
1 week after stopping accutane (i was feeling better) i took one of those vitamin drinks.
Then it happened in it's largest most intense 50 times multiplied severity and I would wish I was dead for months upon months. I was the goddam happiest guy in the world with so much ahead of me, so many dreams and aspirations, so many hobbies, so many things I would enjoy... Now almost nothing brings any goddam joy to me at all.
Days go by as I try and stay productive and do normal things. I do these things... watch movies, tv, play games, go out once in a while, play cards, sell stuff online in a program (mini business). But you know what? I hardly enjoy any of it. I get very very very mild enjoyment out of any of this. Something is wrong with my brain chemicals. Even with paxil I am nowhere near the man I used to be. I HATE my life. With 15 failed meds I dont know what the hell can help anymore. ECT screwed me up even more as my memory is very poor as a result and perhaps even gave me brain damage as I sure dont feel as intelligent as I used to be. Whatever. I just hope I find some freggin wallet with 10,000000 dollars in it as I hate my life and i dont feel like myself. probably never will.
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