Posted by iforgotmypassword on July 7, 2005, at 16:13:26
it takes enormous amounts of willpower to even approach any task, let alone pursue it to completion. everything i do, i do clumsily. i cannot express myself, no matter the situation with people. i am incapable of sustaining any interest in any sort of activity or subject. i do not have any friends, and i am not fond of the people i do associate with. doctors and other professionals have negated the idea that i suffer from any legitimate mood disorder and that my problems specifically lie in my harmful personality. they are unwilling to pursue any creative medication or treatment regimes except in the case where i do all the research that i have limited capability of doing as i have zero dependable functionality. i am unaware of any way to make myself into a functional individual and find a life worth living. i am now 21, havent completed high school, have a rapidly declining IQ, don't work, and it seems that i am solidifying into this dispicable mess. looking for help to end my life is a fruitless struggle with societies immature views of suicide. does anyone know of any way to overcome personality disorder and functional paralysis so that someone can have some level of dignity. medications, nutrients, or somatic treatments perferred. thanx. :)
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