Posted by pretty_paints on February 7, 2005, at 2:07:14
In reply to Re: The Honest Truth » pretty_paints, posted by ed_uk on February 5, 2005, at 20:23:19
Hello Mr Ed,
>Even with a diagnosis of schiz, you still don't know what caused you to be ill.
No, true. BUT you can attribute quite a lot of "weird things" to it, which otherwise you would have had to accept responsibility for in a therapy-type way. For example, all the stuff about the rape and my mum etc. I was trying to wade through all that difficult stuff in therapy. None of it made any sense to me, but now knowing it is a delusion, I can just let it go.
>The most common examples are Schneiders's firk rank symptoms eg.
When I was in hospital I thought that my cat (a soft toy I bought from the hospital shop), I thought I could feel what he was feeling. But he was always feeling angry. But I don't think this is thought withdrawal or thought insertion or thought broadcasting. Also, when I was back at Uni I thought all the tutors could see into my room and KNOW what I was up to. So then when I got to a supervision, it would be like a bit of a game. He'd be like "ooh I saw your light on late last night when I walked past, you must have been burning the midnight oil with that essay!". However I would have been having a party or watching Dawson's Creek with my mates or something. But I KNEW he knew this, he was just playing with me seeing if I would admit to the truth. So we'd just be there looking at eachother, knowing the truth. Which was really uncomfortable. And it meant I could never never never relax in my room. In fact the only place I feel safe is my wonderful house. It's out of the city centre, near the bottom of a big hill. I could never live in town, I would be waay too paranoid. I dunno, my mum and dad say that I will be fine it once I'm well. Do you think the tutor thing (which I know don't really believe) is thought er, broadcasting maybe? I don't know. Anyway, thanks for all the info Ed. I don't understand it that much, but maybe because I'm quite tired at the moment (or that I've just turned into an-IQ-of-3 creature).
Can you believe I'm actually awake at 8AM! Yikesarooney. It's this damn Abilify I think.
>eg. 'My bowels are gangrenous, everyone can smell the stench'
There was someone on babble recently, I think on another board though, who had this obsession with the fact that (he thought) he had a body odour. I thought he may have Body Dysmorphic Disorder, but maybe it's this? He was absolutely convinced that this stench was coming from his bowels.
Oh by the way, one more thing. You know for schiz they say you have to have been ill for like 6 months, so how does that work?
Does the person have to be psychotic for 6 months?? What if they are treated with antipsychotics? Surely then this would help the psychosis. Would a doc really insist on seeing 6 months of pure psychosis, without doing anything to put a stop to the delusions etc?
I don't really think I understand. Maybe you can explain it to me oh big brain of babble :)
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Anyway Mr Ed, how are you dude?? I hope you are doing alright. You don't seem to be doing as many posts as you used to, maybe you are busy? You said you are studying pharmacy, how many years have you been doing this? Do you find it interesting?
I'm gonna get up now and run around the house for a bit (I'm still in bed, I have manoevered by laptop, clever me hey). Just to burn off some energy. All my family have left for work now, sob, so I'm all alone. Ah well.
Take care everyone. Love Kate xx
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