Posted by nicko on June 12, 2004, at 0:44:39
In reply to RE: thanks (nm) » Tweek, posted by Dr. Bob on June 11, 2004, at 23:37:52
hey all im back, first question i want to know is, i just looked at my packet again and it says laxapro, not lexapro, same thing or different? LOL
thanks for your advice so far, i ended up taking a sedative lastnight (well i should say this morning) it helped but i still woke up many times but went back to sleep.when i finally decided to get up i felt terrible, massive headache, blocked nose, and worrying about everything and anything i couldn't eat and my mouth is dry, yeah i am complaining alittle too much, but i just needed to get it off my chest, i honestly feel like im going insane and all i keep thinking about is that little pill and the fact that i don't want to take it anymore, My anxiety would be about 9 just thinking about it, i wonder if its doing me more harm then good.
Ok i guess its time to come clean with myself and you guys whats really making things worse, i have a family member whom i care for and have for basically my whole life who suffers schizophrenia, its obviously in my genes so i worry about it, I've discussed that with dr's before, what are my chances most say low about 2% etc but that doesn't make me feel better, ive been told I would have shown symptoms years ago, im in my early 30s now.
What makes it real tough is i know how they think, what they worry about, what stresses them and what doesn't, if that makes sense, for example i know a certain situation would make them feel uneasy, or a horror movie would make then feel its possible true or related to them some how, so then i wonder am i feeling that too? or am i just saying that to myself? god its hard to explain! hope you guys can understand what I am trying to say, that's why taking this drug is making me feel so uneasy, i feel like it will trigger that sleeping GENE i have.sigh, lastnights panic i had scared shit out of me, i thought here i go, im going mad, I think this constant worry is what started my mild depression in the first place, that plus i had many month of ill health.Sorry for the long post guys, I just needed to get some things off my mind, its kinda coming time to take the tablet again and i don't think i can do it..*cries* this feeling really sucks.
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