Posted by leopard on December 28, 2003, at 18:30:32
In reply to Re: Best Approach for Bipolars » leopard, posted by Mr. Scott on December 28, 2003, at 12:32:13
I am so glad I found this web site...I feel a lot less insecure about my diagnosis...I am finally able to stop labeling myself as inadequate and recognize that the negative, obsessive ruminations, paranoia, perceived slights, anxiety, unfounded jealously, "reading into things", constantly feeling suspicious of people and their motivations are the pinging of chemicals in my brain that need to be redirected...this is not my character. This realization came through tons of therapy, EMDR, and now finally medication. I have been on Geodon for about two months now...I never knew what it was like to feel balanced...I liken it to a warm bath after a lifetime of cold showers. A really warm calm inside. I am able to listen to people without a running negative dialogue interfering with the moment; I am so much more tolerant of people, family, coworkers and life in general. I do not have "brain fog", I do not feel like I am changed...just better. In fact, when I look back at my behavior…literally, my interactions with the world out there, I am abhorred. Instead of beating myself up, I am recognizing how sick I was and how thankful I am to have found a way to move forward in a much less complicated manner. I am slowly weaning myself off of Effexor, I was on the lowest dosage, to see if Geodon can handle it alone. Again, Manic Depression and the accompanying behaviors...or flavors ;)... make diagnosing this disease so difficult and fine tuning the meds near impossible...lots and lots of hard work to be sure! I have had no bouts with insomnia, sexual dysfunction, weight gain, rashes, mania, nothin'...just a nice calm wonderful feeling. I am unfamiliar with a lot of the terminology used on this board. I hope my layman's terminology will help anyone reading this thread.
~Shannon
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