Posted by RRCarlo on November 21, 2003, at 7:04:39
In reply to Re: BP Disorder Irritability » RRCarlo, posted by femlite on November 20, 2003, at 21:31:50
Thanks for the replies. I wake up every morning with a combination of dread and anxiety. I can't imagine letting this go on indefinitely and I have no reason to believe that it's self-correcting.
As I said, I *know* that my anxieties and phobias are irrational, in fact I'm quasi-ok once the heavy weather starts. But I want to feel human again. The irritability is the kick in the butt. I'm the primary custodial parent for an 11-year-old autistic boy. He's the light of my life. He's in a mainstream class and his homework is a mixture of grade-level (sixth) and skill-adjusted material. He's made real progress but lately I find myself getting irritated. He senses this and says "I'm sorry, Dad." You can imagine the guilt and shame I feel afterwards. If I don't "self-medicate" after that, and I don't, then I guess I'm stronger than I thought.
I'm just hoping -- no, mke that *praying* -- that my shrink understands what changes need to be made in meds. I'm willing to work at the behavioral stuff. I'm working my way through the anxiety and phobia workbook. But I can't find my brain chemistry without help.
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