Posted by katia on September 26, 2003, at 14:49:02
In reply to Re: Barb-cat...or anyone who can help me decide, posted by fluffy on September 26, 2003, at 11:04:17
Hi Katy,
I think what best could describe my mood is what you said - cyclothymia (sp?). And it's a step up from where I was. So something is happening, but the sluggishness is not good.
I walk, hike, and do yoga. And I wait tables 2-3x per week (with stairs). So it's not that. I even went to a metabolic nutritionist a few weeks back and got on a diet for my "type" and most people lose a lot of weight, i've remained.And no, the PCOS is not reversible. And as I said before, I've been too wounded with pregnancies not working out in the past due to various reasons -mainly now in retrospect due to me being a basket case (remember the term). Now I realize what was fueling that - bipolar.
anyway, I really want kids, it's not something I want to play around with when there are other options. AND b/c of the other s/e I"m having AND b/c it's not totally doing the trick. I think the Lam. could help - I"m only at 10mg now.
The way my pdoc is doing things, I won't (hopefully) be w/o any m/s at any time; to hopefully transition easily. He's doing it slowly too.
But we'll see. What has dawned on me is that I'm much better than I was a year ago, even six months ago and that's good news.
I'm also reading "Bipolar Survival Guide", the one you were reading; and everything is so intertwined and multi-layered. There's so much about my lifestyle that I can do to improve the mood, i.e. less drinking, regular sleep. I either sleep too much or too little. And I'm going to join a support group in the area for BP. The other thing I've noticed is that when I feel good, I look around at all the voids and it feels lonely and so I get sad. Is that depression or is that me just naturally grieving? Stuff like this to be aware of. And then I start to fill the voids by ,i.e. joining a belly dance troupe! and so forth and then it gets tooooo full and then I crash b/c of the stress....etc. I need moderation.
anyway,
I'm working it from all angles.
I really recommend that you try either Tri. or Depakote. You sound BP; and you sound more like a rapid cycler, in which case I've heard the anti-convulsants are better instead of Lithium. And you haven't tried any of them yet (minus Lam). So don't give up! you still have a lot of options.
good to hear from you again too. I also needed a psychobabble break. I think we all did.
Katia
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